Looking Back..Letting Go And Moving Forward!

Faithful- The title of this post says a lot about me. The last 3 years have been a slow procession in all three of these things. At times I have felt on top of the looking back and making great strides of letting go but then when it came time to move forward it’s as if I had feet made of lead that stopped me in my tracks. This is frustrating to say the least and it’s that whole 2 steps forward and 3 steps back that gets me every time. God in His graciousness and love gave me the key to get off this hamster wheel of frustration. You want to know where I found it? It’s that thing right in the middle ….. Letting Go!

I’ve learned that looking back really does nothing but fuel the embers of my broken heart, feelings of frustration and con jours up all the what if’s to the point it makes me dizzy with anxiety!

Moving forward is impossible if all I am doing is looking back. I must let go! Letting go sounds simple enough until you realize that you love to be in control. Who doesn’t like to be in control? The truth is though that the more I try to strive to be in control of every thing that I only end up making the situation far worse than it is.

I’m learning that I am not in control but He is in perfect control of every thing that concerns me. Psalm 138:8 ( The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy and loving-kindness, O Lord, endure forever–forsake not the works of Your own hands) has been a verse that sustains me when I don’t have the answers or simply don’t know what to do.

The key to my frustrating problems has always been there but it was only when I stopped trying to control my world, be quiet before Him and let it go that I realize He’s got this!

Foodie – While we are talking about looking back I was looking back over some old posts the other night and came to a startling conclusion….. I have made, experimented with various food diets and yes eaten some really disgusting things! Laughing at myself was an understatement and allowed me to see exactly just how much I’ve tried to control every thing including my food!

There was the time in my life that I decided I would be vegan for no other reason than because everybody else was doing it. This phase led to many recipes that should be dropped off the face of the earth!

I wanted to share some of these “delectable” dishes with you…….

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Pureed edamame, avocado and I think green peas

Meatless meatloaf ( Like this makes sense)

Meatless meatloaf ( Like this makes sense)

Dehydrated black bean somethings!

Dehydrated black bean somethings!

Vegan pimento cheese that didn't have even a hint of cheese

Vegan pimento cheese that didn’t have even a hint of cheese

My all favorite disaster… "Turkey" cutlets made with Vital wheat gluten!!

My all favorite disaster… “Turkey” cutlets made with Vital wheat gluten!!

I’m not dogging vegans. I actually admire you and would really love to adapt to a 100% plant-based diet in the future but for me I’ve found that restricting any certain food group from my diet only leads to disaster! In fact the more I’ve let go of the control of food and exercise I’ve found myself enjoying life a little more.

I enjoy all types of food and after about a year and half of experimenting with all kinds of exercise programs that have promised to give me muscles of steel I’ve decided that weight loss and weight management does not have to be hard or expensive. It only will work at it’s best and give the results you are looking for if you are enjoying and having fun with what you do!

My motto has always been move it more and everything in moderation! I get bored with doing the same thing over and over so variety is the spice of life for me!

I even have been back to my first love…. running!

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What is your spice?

Fashionista – It’s Fall y’all! The only fashion tip or insight I can give you today is…… Boots! Need I say more?

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Happy Thursday! :)

Traciology

Ahhhhhhhhhh she’s back!!!! 

It seems to be the trend for me to blog and back away but I’m seriously going to discipline myself to get back at it.

I really do not consider myself some great writer but I do enjoy typing out my thoughts, ideas and the things I’m learning along the way. 

Okay here goes…..

Faithful- Lately I’ve been a little reflective on the past. I’ve done so to evaluate what it is that keeps me bound in fear from so many things. The past 3 years have been the hardest but God has been so faithful to lead, guide and direct me through it and even though there have been times I didn’t think I would make it through I wouldn’t change a thing! Knowing His presence has far outweighed any hurt that has tried to overcome my heart.

As I was reading my little daily devotional the other day He showed me something that hit me like a ton of bricks. The title of the devotional was Calling By Name. Here is an excerpt ….

God is big on giving meaning to names. Names often are specific indicators of God’s plans and purposes for that individual. A young boy grew up as Moses’ servant. His Hebrew name, Hoshea, means “salvation.” As the lad grew, Moses could see that he had a “different spirit” from the rest of the Hebrew men. He was selected to be one of the 12 men whom Moses chose to spy out the land of Canaan. Before the expedition, Hoshea was given a new name by Moses-Joshua, which means “the Lord saves.” Joshua became the new leader of Israel who would lead them into the Promised Land. He would, in fact, save an entire nation.

The author of this devotional led on to give the meaning of his own name and the things that its meaning had taught him. I was intrigued even though I had looked up my name before but I was searching with new eyes. Here is what I found out about the name Tracy. Name meaning of Tracy is Brave, Warlike.

Well hmmmmm imagine that! Me, BRAVE?

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I honestly sat there and looked at that word like I had never seen it before! To think all this time I’ve let the world and those in it tell me differently. Just like that something changed in my cowardly heart knowing that when God named me from the beginning He called me brave!  As the tears rolled down my cheeks that morning I decided it’s time to start living up to my name and stop  cowering in fear from people and things of this world. He has made me and given me the name brave to do things for Him and that’s just what I’m going to do!

Go ahead google the meaning of your name. I guarantee that you will most likely find that you are not living up to that name and I challenge you to do so! He gave you your name for a reason!

Psalms 139: 13- 16

13For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

Foodie – I don’t know about you but I get so tired of ever voice out there ( including my own) ;)  telling me what to eat, drink, not eat, not drink, what’s good, what’s bad, etc, etc! I’ve tried just about every diet out there along with programs, systems, meal plans to the point that I’ve decided to step off the crazy carousel and give you my own take on what should be.

It’s not hard, in fact it’s really quite simple. It’s not a program, it’s not a shake,it’s not a wrap and it’s not some intense fitness program either.If those things help you then go for it but I can save you a lot of money and time with the simple concept I’m going to share.

What is it you ask? Eat good wholesome food, ditch the crappy processed stuff and move!!! There it is! :)

I’m not dogging great healthy products or even fitness programs but I can only imagine how hard it must be for someone new to health and fitness with the explosion of news feeds , articles and books that say try this not that, this works that doesn’t! It’s confusing and exhausting!

I feel for that person and although I’m not a registered dietician or licensed fitness instructor I sincerely want to take that person under my wing and simply show them that it does not have to be complicated or even expensive to get healthy!

I’m here for you!!!!!!

It’s really all in moderation because I promise you that if you deny that brownie bite long enough it will haunt you until you succumb to its lures! This does NOT mean shove 6 in your mouth but I say eat the ONE brownie bite, savor it and move on!

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Fashionista – Favorite find this month was this cute little skirt I happened to find at Repeat Boutique. I’ve come to the conclusion that I love fashion but I love it for less. This is a Nannette Lepore skirt that would usually retail over $250. On the rack it was priced $48 but because I hit the day right I got it for 70% off of that! What a steal!

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Happy Hump day!

Who Am I ?

I heard a sermon from the series #deathtoselfie by Pastor Steven Furtick Sunday about being who you really are. The statement that has stuck with me has been that God won’t bless who I pretend to be! It is was a sermon based on the story of Jacob and Esua…. Check it out…http://elevationchurch.org/sermons/just-call-me-jacob?autoplay=sermon

In the the age where social media saturates our everyday lives 24/7 it’s very easy to caught up in the whirlwind of striving to be someone we are not. We can hide behind flowery words and status updates as well as fake smiles and touched up photos. Yes! I’m guilty of all those things as well but I want to take a minute to be real with you! After all it’s not our so called perfect lives that attract or endear us to others but it is rather our struggles and imperfections that help us to identify and grow closer to one another. There is nothing quite as comforting as when you are sharing with someone a struggle and they can identify perfectly with your heartache.

I want God to be glorified in my weaknesses so that when I do per chance do some amazing and hard things in life all the glory goes to him! His strength is made perfect in my weakness not my strengths and I don’t know about you but I’ve got some weaknesses!

I post a lot about fitness and healthy eating here on my Facebook page and it’s no secret that health and wellness are definite passions of mine but you may not the why behind that passion.

I have been a disordered eater and dieter for most of my life. It started at an early age and manifested itself greatly in high school in the form of eating disorders. It wasn’t until just about 8 years ago after attending a healthy eating class by my Chiropractors that my eyes were opened to how God designed us to eat and what to eat that changed how I viewed my health, weight and food choices. I thank him daily for that season in my life!

Fast forward to now and it’s obvious that I love to eat my fruits and veggies and I LOVE to sweat! However that doesn’t mean that I adhere to that everyday!

Here’s the real me….. in a nutshell

I don’t wake up with my makeup on or my hair perfectly coiffed and my pajamas are not monogrammed!

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I love to work out but neither my from or methods are perfect or even graceful for that matter. ( I can trip on my own two feet)

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There is nothing I love more than fruits and vegetables except CHOCOLATE!! And yes I wear my nerdy glasses while in the kitchen….

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I post this …..

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but I really would rather go face first and eat this and sometimes I do :) ….

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I’m just as comfortable in my boots or heels as I am in tennis shoes depending upon my mood for the day…

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I’m a kid at heart, I love to laugh, have learned the art of laughing at myself and make no apologies for loving knee socks!

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I unashamedly love my family and wouldn’t trade them for anything!

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I’d rather watch The Walton’s or Little House then any reality, romance show or vampire movie any day! ( I’ll take a man who loves the Lord with all his heart and treats a woman with true respect then a man with a hard body or pretty face any day!)

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No matter how much I may have changed over the years I’m still this little chubby cheeked girl on the inside.

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I’m passionate in wanting you to know that yes healthy eating and exercise are good for you, it’s what I love but most importantly that you are beautiful no matter the size of your jeans, the number on the scale or what society has tried to tell you what beauty is. God made YOU in his image and it’s time to stop pretending to be somebody else and simply start being YOU!

Be yourself because everybody else is already taken!

My Why

Why do I post things about my weight progress, food and fitness?
There are three main reasons why. I will tell you though I don’t do it to annoy you, sell you on anything or to flaunt myself in anyway I’m just excited about the changes God is doing in me and the path he has placed me on.
For years I have been the girl who struggled with her weight and self esteem. Growing up I was the shy chubby girl who was made fun of and the word fatty spoken to me by other kids has stuck with me for years!!!! Those words hurt and in the process of growing up I found myself chained to an ideal weight and what I should look like.
Over the years I have been on just about every crazy fad diet known to man, I’ve starved myself and ashamedly have been caught in the binge and purge cycle. It’s only by the mercy, love and grace of God that I’m even still here! I believe though that what the enemy meant for evil God is using it for my good and has instilled in me a passion and love for health and wellness. I’m no expert nor do I hold any formal degrees but the things I’ve learned have been by attending different classes, doing my own research and talking with a few health and wellness experts over the years. I’ve studied up on different types of daily diets and have come to the conclusion it’s really all about balance and being mindful of what you put in your body. Being fit is different for everyone of us. We are all made different so I’m going to look different than you and vice versa.
You can spend hours in the gym but if you are eating crap 24 hours a day you are just like a hamster on a wheel in its cage….. going no where! You have to start in the kitchen but then you have to decide you are going to get some kind of exercise everyday! It doesn’t have to be one set thing because your body desires diversity. The key is finding what you like to do. It can be taking a brisk walk, working in the yard, running or whatever just MOVE! I enjoy my Beachbody programs but I also love being outside walking, running and I absolutely love to hike I just haven’t found my hiking buddy yet. ;)
It’s really just that simple… Eat clean whole foods as close to their natural state and exercise. No gimmicks, no fad diets and no crazy products just plain hard work and the added benefit of moving your body daily also gives you the ability to indulge every once in awhile too.Trust me this girl still has to have her chocolate!!
I’m on a continual health journey not because I think it’s going to make me live forever but because I have a race to run. Only this race isn’t the latest 5K downtown but the race God has me on for the life He has given me. I’ve got work to do, places to go, people to love and care for and I can’t do those things effectively if my health is suffering!
So why do I post so many pics of me sweating, food experiments, and current programs I am doing here on Facebook?
1. I’ve got a race called life to run, places to go and people to love and care for!
2. I want to honor God with my body
3. Most importantly I want to encourage YOU! If I can help just 1 person in taking baby steps to increasing their health it’s all worth it to me!
God has brought me so far and just want to share what He has and is doing in my life. I’m so thankful I took the plunge and invested in Chalene Extreme last year. I love the Beachbody community, their integrity, what they stand for and their products are like no other!
I’ve lost so much more than just weight, I’ve lost years of unhealthy baggage, self pity, self loathing, anger, and regret! I’ve also gained a lot more than just muscle and strength. I’ve gained confidence, self respect, and a desire to help and encourage others.
I believe in the power of encouragement!
Follow me in my next challenge with Chalene Johnson’s PIYO!
Yours in health!
Traci

 

 

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The next 60 days!

Overnight Apple Pie Oats

It’s so true that when they say breakfast is the most important meal of the day! I used to be the girl who would starve herself until lunch and then make a head dive into a complete binge on all the wrong things when noon rolled around. I’m thankful that with age comes wisdom because this girl can not go without breakfast. I need fuel to keep me going and so do you!

It doesn’t have to be complicated. It can be simple yet delicious and nutritious……

Behold ……

Overnight Apple Pie Oats

1/2 cup oatmeal

1/2 to 2/3 cup water or almond milk

1/2 of granny smith apple ~ chopped

1 tsp coconut oil

1 Tbsp pure maple syrup

cinnamon to taste

Place oats, water, apple, and syrup in bowl

Mix well, cover and place in refrigerator overnight

Enjoy by warming a bit the next morning and sprinkle on some cinnamon, mix in coconut oil or you could even dress it up with some chopped nuts.

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The nutrition details

Calories ~ 275

Total Fat~ 8

Carbohydrates~ 47

Sodium~ 0

Fiber~ 7

Protein~ 5

There you have it a fast, delicious and nutritious breakfast to start your day off right!